Pink Floyd's The Wall album was then -- and maybe still is for all I know -- the unifier of all stoners, dumb or genius; its pen-and-ink cover is their stoner flag. I fantasized about killing them all back then, like a good Republican, and blowing up the school... At the same time, I hated that Matt Muniz and his pals were now singing about doing just that, and I felt uninvited though I certainly wouldn't have joined them if they asked. It was their song and therefore never to be mine, and I hated hearing their fake British accents all through the hallways between classes: "Hey! Teach-ah / leave them kids alone."
It's absurd to think I would be dumb enough to waste my time disliking a song because it triggered mental associations with slack-jawed Jersey thugs all long gone, yet the pain, if that's the word, lingered on. I eventually owned every single Floyd album, except The Wall. And of course, I preferred Syd Barrett-era Floyd more than late era, blah blah zzzzzzz.
In 1997, though, the film--directed by Alan Parker and written by Roger Waters--found its way to me via a big VH1 premiere marathon. It was on 24 hours a day and I'd done recently done a voiceover for a Curve Perfume ad ("Curve for men, Curve for women") which VH1 and MTV were playing--also around the clock-- during almost every break, so I watched THE WALL over and over, in a drunken haze of self-satisfaction, taking a heroic swig from my 1.75 Ten High bourbon bottle every time the Curve commercial played. In the process, THE WALL became mine, associated with my big Curve perfume glory and whiskey exaltation. Matt Muniz, adieu!
And now, long after the Curve has gone, I see it on TV and I understand: THE WALL, for all its midnight cult cache, turns out to be one of the few movies works noticeably better with commercials. Ads and station breaks help metatextualize the film's repetitive jumble of semi-autobiographical 'rock star in mental decline' vignettes. Ads are part of the whole meta thing, man... since a big part of the film is about selling out, and about... watching... TV, and repeating messages over and over... Dude, this dude Pink is alienated. And a commercial movie about a man alienated by a commercial society and interrupted in his brooding for the new Mitsubishi Gallant to drive right into his local dealership... shit yeah, that's deep.
If this film is psychedelic and stoner-worthy today, it's only because of its animated sequences, which are so psychedelic they make YELLOW SUBMARINE look like RUN SILENT, RUN DEEP. This stuff is brilliant yet disturbing: London working class LSD-spiked political oppression Orwellian fascist critique as only the Brits can do it. punctuating scenes strung together in associative and movement/color-related fashion, stretching and collapsing time and space but stuck in a schizophrenic dissociative thought loop. There's no real arc of a narrative beyond the run of the mill nervous breakdown (perhaps reflecting Syd Barrett's descent to too-much-acid insanity-something that sounds badass but is traumatizing and dispiriting). We see avalanches of rioting kids (actually not that many) crashing gates to the stadium, over and over, and the wandering of a laddie this way and that way through the train station, envying the kids whose soldier dads do come home, over and over; the grotesque obese working class mother looming down on us like a carnival attraction; as older and a rock star with a vacuum cleaner whirring in the hallway outside his hotel room while Pink loses his shit inside; Pink ignoring his wife, then getting furious when she leaves him; Pink ignoring a sexy groupie in his hotel room; Pink ignoring other people etc. No one ever laughs or has a good time, unless it's gluttonously, ala the mom having tea and crumpets, or Bob Hoskins as the Cristal-sippin' manager (if this were a musical version of DEMENTIA, and it kind of is, Hoskins would be the Bruno Ve Sota).
Back to the TV commercial analogy, then... There's also that thing with Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon and The Wizard of Oz (1939) being played at the same time, to dig the coincidental connections. It's clear how that started, with a stoner watching the movie with the sound off and the album playing and catching a presumably random series of time/theme coincidences. Floyd goes well in any mash-up, and The Wall is a mash-up art waiting to happen.
That's why, then, that last night I was flipping the channel to/from The Wall and World War Two documentary similar (same war at least) to the one Pink's watching within the film itself (The Dam Busters), possibly even using some of the same archival footage. So during the commercial breaks between aged American veterans talking plainly and humbly about the gore and mass slaughter of D-Day at Omaha Beach on the Military Channel, I flipped to The Wall. These old dudes in this D-Day documentary were just grateful to be alive and to have been spared--and then---commercial! For a "catheter that hurts less." So back over to VH1 I flip and there's old Pink smashing the telly because he's too famous and fucked-up and nobody loves him. I wanted to send the ghost of Winston Churchill to kick him in the bum.
Medical science might dismiss this kind of close reading of non-temporal reality as mere hallucination, but it's the other way around. If we can see the apple decaying in the pantry, or bursting with health fresh from the tree, see it breathing in the sunlight, are we just stoned? If we see flakes of skin and waves of electromagnetic energy rippling around our face and hands, are we 'hallucinating' or seeing what normal people screen out because it's not necessary for us to survive day-by-day? When the blinders are off we see that the concept of matter as inert is the hallucination --everything is waves rising, decaying, rising again with every breath and death. It's the sense of "permanence" and completeness--from second to second--that's the illusion. But without it, without being able to just say 'okay, that's an apple in my buddy's hand, do I want an apple, too? no - okay, move on' we'd be just sitting there bug-eyed at the awe of it all, like an infant looking out the window, and never get anything done. The blinders help us plow from goal to goal and meal to meal like the mother with her crumpets, and the dimwit groupies with their hair and nails.
Another thing the film gets definitely right is the whole confusing "warm thrill of confusion / that space cadet glow" that comes from being all fucked-up in a giant sea of fucked-up people at some packed, fucked-up rock show, where you can sense the violence seething in the hormonal ebb and flow of the turned-on fucked-up crowd. One of the very first scenes of THE WALL is a bunch of stampeding, rioting fans plunging into the darkness from a broken chained-up door. Rioting - is there any more depressing example of mammalian 'spooked herd' behavior?
I know because I was in two riots, or rather was direct witness. Before the Curve commercial, after Matt Muniz, right in between there, 1987-8, I witnessed and was almost part of a truly horrible-to-behold-while-on-acid mass stampede of ticketless Grateful Dead fans roaring up the side entrance ramp of a West Virginia amphitheater during spring break. I was in the head of the charge to begin, part of a "who's got my miracle ticket?" posse of revelers. Unlike them, though, I didn't give a shit about getting in... I was just there for the drugs. "There's only one old lady taking tickets at Gate seven!" noted my friend when he returned from scoping it out, seeing if he could somehow sneak in. My whole ticketless broke-ass posse took off at once, me following. But as we went from a walk to a run toward that gate, everything intensified and became riot strength---stampeding (you could feel the asphalt vibrating like horses hoofs). I found myself walking off to the side of the ramp going up, not wanting to be part of it. If I hadn't left right then, I would have been trampled.
My heightened fear of violence and general lack of interest in seeing the Dead trumped my fear of being alone that night so I was able to witness--in full on acid-just-kickin'-in hyper-real lysergic intensity--a huge explosion of violence as the crowd smashed through the gate, glass breaking, security guards and cops chasing and clubbing bloody hippy faces on the upper decks; cops grabbing kids by their tie-dyes as they tried to jump back into the crowd below; cops grabbing their long dreads in a balled up fist; screaming and yelling by everyone about everything; cops with clubs and the heavy sound of bodies smacking into pavement, blood, and then... just as quickly, it was all over and forgotten.
I couldn't believe it. Even the cops with hand-cuffed hippies in tow seemed to just go back to laughing and standing around. One busted kid had a broken nose which was why all the blood was all over his shirt, so no worries, he's fine, or so some kid explained in passing me as he slunk back down the ramp, just a nose broken --no big deal.
But I was by then super high on a lot of acid, and the violence I'd just witnessed had electrified a part of my brain usually unplugged... for a reason. It went deep into my psychic tissues and stayed there, twisting like a bloody animated nerve - my hippie flower within was pulled out by an ugly metal flying eagle... Goodbye, blue sky.
I imagine old Roger Waters had plenty of similar altered state traumas while touring with the Floyd, and probably--as I did that day--found his faith in his fellow man forever shattered by seeing riots of fans crashing gates, and was appalled by the animal ugliness of a stadium full of drugged up Matt Munizes, all willing to stomp all over their fellow man to get closer to the stage, the whole thing taking on the form of a giant sadomasochistic carnival of torture and degradation; moths to the flame of hell, a vortex of evil from beyond the searing red heat of the stage lights, draining the youth and beauty of the throngs in a giant hoover, leaving toothless old junky faux-sages incoherent even in their laughter. They don't need no education, and waving their dying lighters, they don't need sleep, food, or a job either. And let's not forget the infamous 1979 Who concert trampling, still fresh no doubt in Roger's mind--as it was in all of ours--during the writing of this film. That trampling sobered the US rock culture right up, right in time for the Reagan 80s.
And that's the rub, for by far the most interesting aspect of the non-animated stuff in THE WALL is the whole bit of mixing lysergic 'horror' rock stadium mentality with Naziism-meets-Stalinism (two hammers, no sickle) militant pageantry. It's interesting in that respect that the only time Pink isn't a total asshole--the only time he seems at peace--is when he starts leading his little rock-and-roll Nazi rally, lifting children and kissing mums on the forehead and singling out various inferior races and sexual orientations for persecution from his lofty podium. Smiling, hugging, saluting his gathered throngs and otherwise firing up the engine of mobilized violence, he looks finally happy. Hey, Teacher! Dig those KKK witch hats!
Perhaps THE WALL then is acid cinema for those of us who've had a bad trip of the sort where one becomes a terrified, bug-eyed witness to the ugly souls of men. Compare Munch's "The Scream" with the agonized face on the WALL poster (below), each a howling witness to the massive cruelty that is every day on Earth as we munch and crunch each other into bland extinction. If you're an acid dealer you need to avoid falling into this zone because it's your job to guide people on dosage when you sell it to them. But no one maybe tells you--the dealer--how much to take when you initially test its strength so sometimes you end up taking more than you should. It's a noble cause--you're doing it for your customer's sanity--but one must be ready for true madness, for taking too much is a terrifying possibility. I've only had the problem around five or six times, but they burned holes in my soul I doubt even death will heal.
But I assure you: if you can make it through something like that, the big Pink Munch scream overload, without Thorazine or Benzos, or screaming, or begging your friends take you to the hospital, then when you finally come down, or up, you have the thousand yard stare. And only then do Buddha and Jesus write your name down in their date planners.
THE WALL is 'bad trip' acid cinema, then, for those who know the pain of having taken far too much of it. Those of us who might still find themselves longing for the "comfortably numb" feeling of being left alone to watch old war movies on TV all night, instead of having to go to the party or show, able to hide in the comfort of the dark, fumbling for half-empty bottles on the ashtray-and-empties-covered tables, unable to ever fully dim the sensory overload that's sending us into madness but taking gladly the bargain of long-term damage for temporary relief.
In its rocking apathy, THE WALL applauds every stoner's decision to stay under the influence, in the dark, watching old movies on TV and coming down or drinkin' up, forever, no matter how a nice a day it is outside, or how intoxicating the war seems to be from space. If you don't like THE WALL, maybe it's not because it reminds you of Matt Muniz or your past rock glory and boozy drift into oblivion, maybe it just reminds you that even frosty remoteness is just another pose. A remote in reach is an oxymoron. You might flip between rock concerts and war documentaries, but no remote reaches far enough to flip from that fat old sun in the sky / that's falling / right down on your shaved-ass head.